Yoga!!!

right i have decided that i want to be thinner, and I'm not going to stop eating because i understand the repercussions that that only makes you more unhealthy and makes your look horrible(anorexia) rather than looking good. sooo i have to come a conclusion that i am going to start yoga which i have wanted to do for a long time but never known how to start.
i cant afford yoga lessons and you would have to travel to get to any from my house anyway which would be annoying for my parents and GCSE revision after school classes coming up anyway so i have bought myself a book called 'Classic Yoga by Vilma Lalvani which goes through breathing, posture, warm ups, relaxing and three courses in yoga all with instructions, so far I've only done warm ups and relaxing at the end (and posture and breathing) so asap i am going to start on course one and work my way through it but I'll need to set time aside to do this because i have to warm up then do the course then relax- which takes quite a while but I'm really looking forward to it, should be very fun! .D

Sketching

sketching I've always loved that word i don't know why it just looks really pretty... anyway! i am about to start to try and make something presentable with charcoals so if it does work i will post a badly taken picture (probably from my web cam) of it on here and if its a total failiure i won't heehee but fingers crossed because im using charcoal(another pretty word) which i haven't had much luck with in the past, but you know learn from you mistakes and all that .D

Profile photo

I don't know if I'm going to keep this photo for my profile but i thought it was a really pretty one(i took it in the woods near my house) its pretty epic living in the middle of woods for photography and about 10 Min's away from the beach, not that i actually go to the beach very often ha ha.
i hope you people like it though as i have used it for my portfolio to get into college so if i get into the one i want to i can study photography (alongside textiles, drama and English lit-because I'm weird and like English lit).
anyway thats all i wanted to say .)

Conformative

Conformative. another word that i go against haha, i understand the need for an amout of conformation like rules that stop people from getting badly injured but i think people have taken it extremes.
fashion for example, im not an overly confident person so im not going to stand out by shouting and making a scene so i use other things that i have like my sence of style which i know lots of people would disagree with but i really like it(obviously). i dont wear the latest fashion trends very often and its not always because they genuinly look bad(which on the general public and not some super skinny and photoshopped model normally do look quite bad) but its the fact that people follow the trends like anything instead of actually choosing their clothes because they as themselves like it, but they buy them because this celeb was wearing something like it or some popular magazine says it looks good.
i am not an amazing example of originality but i want to be and i think people find that weird to understand because unlike probably 99.99% of teenagers i dont struggle to fit in, i struggle to stand out.

Dependency

Dependency. i really don't like that word, we depend on so much that it annoys me nobody can ever truly be self sufficient i think that's probably why i find it hard to accept a lot of things like why we depend upon: food, money and other people so much and even religion if your religious.
food; my dad often says that he thinks i would be anorexic if he didn't make me eat but that's just not true i don't have any problem with food and I'm certainly not about to stop eating i just don't like the fact that i 'have' to eat, drink for some reason doesn't have the same thought track for me i don't have any problem with drinking or depending on it because i think although i know rationally that you would last longer on water that food but it still just doesn't seem to play such a big role in our lives like we don't set out times per day just to drink etc.
money; every ones lives no matter how successful depend on how much money they have to their lifestyle - why?
other people; i love my friends and family but even my parents i don't like that i wouldn't be able to do much without them i wouldn't even be alive.
religion; I'm not religious but my parents are and i know this isn't why people turn to religion but i have this thought stuck in my head that its like people get to a point then they cant do anything else without someone/thing else to lean on, to depend on and yes rationally i understand this is probably completely wrong for 99% of religious people but then again I've never been much for a rational person heehee.
And now i feel guilty and selfish because my life is good i mean my parents arnt rich but i dont have anywhere close to a bad life yet i still complain when theres so many other people out there so much worse off than me and yes i am aware that i sound like a winging teenager but to be honest your the one reading this and i probably am just that; a winging teenager.
ps: i am incredibly sorry if i offeneded anyone with this.

inspirational quote

Being called weird is like being called limited edition, meaning your something people dont see all that often remember that -ahley purdy (black veil brides) on twitter, i dont know if he said it or if someone else did and im looking like a dork thinking its him what whoever said it i found it to be a really helpful quote.

First post (just to be unoriginal)

Hey so this is my first post on this blog.
...so about me: i love lions, possums, the colour green, pirates (18th century style-like pirates of the Caribbean), Alice in wonderland(ironic since I'm called Alice), books, rock music and fashion.
the famous people i would like be would be like are, Dave Grohl, Billie Joe Armstrong, Johnny Dept and Gok Wan and yes i know they're all guys and no i don't want to have a sex change or anything i just think these guys the amazing.
it may sound weird but i really want to become a famous fashion designer, because a) i love fashion and designing and b) i want to be able to hold some influence in the world, i want to be someone people look towards for their opinions and i also want to make a statement, become famous but not give in to all the media pressure and have magazines doctor any photos of me etc. i just want to be able to say f**k you to all that stuff and have other people take notice.
back to the thing about it seeming weird, that's because I'm an 'emo' and emos arn't your typical fashion designer 'material, well I'm not an emo and neither are any of my friends but that's what we've been labelled because we like wearing black and listening to rock music. to be honest i don't know how i would label myself- I'm not a goth but i like some Gothic things, I'm not a punk but i love punk fashion, I'm not and emo but i sometimes dress like one- i don't think i can label myself in that sense unless i just call myself odd. i also don't understand peoples need to categorise everything, originality is such a hard thing to come by now a days. doesn't mean I'm going to stop trying to find it though!